…updates…

Posted on June 18, 2009 by mizura.
Categories: Uncategorized.

dah brapa bln xde pape updates… to tell u de truth, my life has gone haywire after this promotion… btw, sapa kata naik pangkat tu seronok? cikgu cikgi slalu komplen kan pasal lambat naik pangkat n bla bla bla?

for me simple je.. benda2 naik pangkat or promotion ni kita jangan harap or tunggu2… bukan sebab apa, kalau tunggu then xdpt nanti frust plak… tapi kalau wat donno jek tetiba dapat, kan ke mcm bulan jatuh ke riba?

terimala konsep rezeki.. mayb tuhan xbagi naik pangkat, tapi rezeki tu dapat dengan cara lain… kalau dpt naik pangkat, mayb tuhan tarik rezeki benda lain… something for us to ponder…

a lot has been going on in my life, but im just too lazy to write now… dunno which one to begin with…

nyway, would like to spend more time watching my baby sleeps…

…chaotic life!!!…

Posted on March 30, 2009 by mizura.
Categories: Uncategorized.

in catcity cracking head designing manual for my service…

terrible food poisoning this morning…

then came the news on my promotion…

rumours say it could be on the 1st april…

april fool???

y m i not that xcited???

missing my son a lot i guess… he topped everything in my list now!!

…de dilemma…

Posted on February 24, 2009 by mizura.
Categories: baby.

i have about 2 more weeks before i start working again.. n that means the time that i’ll spend with dzafran will be less than what im enjoying now.. sedihnya… tomorrow me n hubby will have to go look for the best nursery that we can find for dzafran..

 

kalau ikutkan hati, i didnt trust anyone to take care of my baby xcept for close family members, but none of them lives near my house.. my mak keeps asking me to let her raise dzafran for the time being, at least sampai 6 months, tp ntahla.. thinking back, mak bukannya sihat sgt lg.. its just one year since her backbone surgery, and both of us know that it will take more time than that to completely heal her.. lagipun, i think at her age she should be getting enough sleep at night, bukannya teruk2 bgn bela cucu.. dahla dulu teruk besarkan anak2, takkan bila anak2 dah besar nak seksa mak suruh teruk bela cucu pulak… ill feel guilty…

 

but the main reason is, i want to be near dzafran.. if i were to let mak takes care of him for a while, that means being able to see him only on weekends.. only god knows how difficult that would be, n i dont want to miss a single thing of dzafran’s growing process..  

 

deep inside me, i feel guilty of having to let dzafran spend most of his day in the nursery when i go to work.. i should be the one raising him, but being a working mum, i have to sacrifice that.. aku igt sgt mak penah kata, dulu masa anak2 kecik n nak mak ada, mak tinggal anak2 sebab pg keja, skrg bila dah pencen n nak anak2 ada dgn mak, anak2 pulak tinggal mak utk keja n family baru… i was touched.. because i know ill be feeling the same some 30 or 40 years from now..

 

there’s always the worry of how people will treat dzafran at the nursery, layan dia elok ke, or biar dia nangis sampai keras ke, rajin sembang dgn dia ke, or biar dia berak dlm diaper sampai sejam baru cuci ke.. those make me crazy, coz that would be beyond my control.. i can only pray for the best.. penyakit berjangkit mcm selsema jgn cakapla, sorg je kena mesti jangkit habis satu nursery.. so far my baby is strong and healthy, he didnt even have jaundis when he was born… i know he’ll get sick anyway even under my care, but at least i know that could be prevented..

 

ntahla.. ikutkan hati berat rasa nak tinggalkan dzafran bila keja.. babysitter pun susah nak cari sebab bukannya aku kenal org sgt kat penang nih.. there’s always an option of having an indonesian maid at home, but nak dpt yg bagus pun bukannya senang.. i hv lots of other stuff to worry about than having maid yg lari dr umah tinggalkan baby, or worst, lari dgn baby!! with crime rates n higher cost of living nowadays, semua org boleh jadi jahat sebab duit.. itu yg buat aku pikir sepuloh kali nak amik maid.. harga nak dpt sorg maid thru agent pun dah increase to approx rm7k, kalau maid lari or xbagus mmg lebur duit…

 

thats why after thinking back, nursery is the best option.. we just hope that we would be able to find a good one, n hope that dzafran will enjoy his stay there.. i hope one day he knows that i love him no less though i left him there to go to work.. bila pikir nak kejutkan dia dr tido awal pg utk hantar nursery pun aku dah sedih.. sedih terpaksa kacau dia tido.. tu belum part dia nangis bila kena tinggal lagi.. susahnya… kadang2 bila tgk dzafran tido at night, rasa berdosa pulak xdpt nak besarkan dia dgn tangan sendiri.. itu yg buat aku sedih sgt… ive been having sleepless nights for a few days now becos of this..

 

i hope whatever decision that ill make with my husband on the choice of the nursery would be the best for dzafran.. i hope he’ll stay strong and healthy, and hope that the caretakers there love him as much as i do… n hopefully 30 or 40 years from now dzafran will not let me feel de way mak is feeling now..

…manusia mmg kejam!!!…

Posted on February 15, 2009 by mizura.
Categories: Uncategorized.

ive watched the episode about 5 days ago, but until today i couldnt seem to erase the image out of my brain… in fact, they r in my dreams almost everynite.. i still cry thinking of it… the image of DBKL men dragging a still alive stray dog by its neck- to death! and dumping the carcasses of stray dogs n cats at a dumpsite… kejamnya!!!

how could human being be so cruel? xbolehkah manusia yg allah kurniakan akal fikiran bertindak menggunakan AKAL? bukankah AKAL itu salah satu nikmat allah yg paling besar untuk umat manusia? that episode of 360 on tv3 really made me realized that how little human regard god’s creation… 

im sad that it happened in malaysia, by a government servant, and i think by muslims, judging by the way they dressed… seriously it bothers me that much.. being human doesnt mean we have the right to take away another creature’s life- so cruelly.. i mean, malaysians cried out loud to the world that we hate violence, we are angry of what happened in gaza, and yet here in malaysia we COULDNT even treat ANIMALS they way they should be treated… come to think of it, it is no wonder crimes are everywhere now, if a person can be so heartless towards a powerless animal, xheranla kalau setakat nak cekik or tikam another human being.. cos both are living creature kan?

im angry!!! damn angry!!! really really really angry!!!

DBKL SUCKS… BIG BIG time!!!

yg muslim tuh, bawak2 la baca surah al-kahfi…

bacalah kisah nabi muhammad s.a.w, how the great prophet treated dogs…

allah haramkan muslim dari sentuh anjing bukan bermakna muslim boleh bunuh anjing sesuka hati… xkiralah stray dogs yg garang ke hapa, a dog is a dog, ada OTAK tapi TAK BERAKAL… manusia ADA OTAK dan ADA AKAL…

well, i think orang DBKL tu pun dua kali lima dgn binatang jugak,

ADA OTAK TAPI TAK BERAKAL…

nauzubillah.. moga dijauhkan kaum kerabat aku dari menjadi buta akal mcm org2 DBKL tuh…

…two month old…

Posted on February 12, 2009 by mizura.
Categories: baby.

my little champ turned 2 month old yesterday, n as usual we paid dr razif a visit.. this time around, ahmad dzafran was due for injection, ntah apa nama injection tuh xhafal la plak…

i was amazed that he cried for only 2 minutes n smiled again.. he was in such a good mood… and guess what? he is now officially 6kgs.. patutla berat gilerr… 

 

the doc informed us that he’s temperature might be a bit high becos of the injection… and true enough, today he’s down with fever… but a mild one i guess… luckily the doc prescribe him paracetamol syrup… ubat demam la tuh!! heheh…

giving him medicine is a challenge, terpaksa letak dlm susu or else he’ll spit the syrup out..

apart from that, dr razif gave him mouth gel for his tougue, to prevent fungal infection due to the milk that he consumed.. dah putih dah lidah ahmad dzafran.. maklumla baby blum boleh gosok lidah… although i bought him baby’s toothbrush, his mouth is too small for that…

 

and since ahmad dzafran dah berak regularly at least once a day, the doc advised us to continue using frisolac comfort, special milk that needed to be mixed with his bebelac.. 

 

we spent about an hour at kmc, masuk kereta je ahmad dzafran terus tido… his nap time..

baby’s day out!

Posted on February 9, 2009 by mizura.
Categories: baby, family.

during the chinese holiday break, tok mama invited ahmad dzafran to come over for a week… mama n ayah tagged along of course!

on the chinese new year, we decided to bring dzafran out coz i needed to shop for his new sleepers… he’s grown so fast, and he can only fit into 1 of his many sleepers..

dzafran’s first outing was to queensbay mall!! yey!! actually mama dia yg excited sbb dah sebln xpegi shopping complex, hehe… only god can answer how did i managed to stay away from shopping mall that long… hihi..

ahmad dzafran was in a good mood, sampai je queensbay, turun parking terus mintak susu…

he didnt like being in his stroller though, so we had to take turns dukung dzafran…

 

he seemed to enjoy himself at toy’r'us.. we were looking for a new toy for him but couldnt find the right one…

 

i bought 3 new sleepers for him from f.o.s., new milk box for travelling and his bebelac…

 tok mama also bought him a new romper from poney! tq tok mama!

tgh best shopping, he cried for more milk… luckily jusco provided baby’s room for breastfeeding, so we paid the room a visit..

after feeding, he was fast asleep… mmg penat sgt kot!

…the angels…

Posted on January 31, 2009 by mizura.
Categories: baby, miyau.

people say angels come in different sizes n forms..

but ahmad dzafran’s angels are pretty obvious i guess…

cos they never leave his side…

the bodyguards!

the bodyguards!

 

miss panda...

miss panda...

 

not even that, the angels sometimes invaded my son’s space!

 

 

and also my bed!

baby toto n tuty...

baby toto n tuty...

 

 

i guess angels r meant to be anywhere n everywhere they want to…

…one month’s old…

Posted on January 11, 2009 by mizura.
Categories: baby.

ahmad dzafran turned 1 month yesterday!

today we brought him to kmc for check up, and dr razif said that he now weighs 4.3kg… patutnya one month berat naik 1kg je, tp ahmad dzafran dah naik 1.5kg! mmgla anak ayah dia… xcaya?? cuba tgk pics nih…

...like father like son...

...like father like son...

 

1 week

 

1 month

…life’s like that…

Posted on December 31, 2008 by mizura.
Categories: Uncategorized.

somebody sent me an interesting email n i thought i’ll share the content here..

the words are nicely put together… and they made me wonder how little we appreciate life now…

Isn’t it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70’s and 80’s - could write something so very eloquent…and so very appropriate..

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways ,but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We’ve added years to life not life to years. We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We’ve done larger things, but not better things.

We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less.

We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete…

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side..

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent..

Remember, to say, ‘I love you’ to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

George Carlin

beautiful, isnt it?

…mama for TWO weeks now!…

Posted on December 24, 2008 by mizura.
Categories: baby, meaningful events.

god, time flies! im a mama for 2 weeks now!

 

at the exact time now a fortnight ago, i was in de labour room, waiting to give birth to my 1st ever baby… i was.. in INDESCRIBABLE pain, at times i felt like that’s de day that i was entitled to die… seriously, betulla apa org kata, sakit nak beranak ni is sakit yg paling sakit dlm dunia! 

 

and therefore, today in this entry, i would like to salute all mothers in de world!

 

i wonder how some women managed to give birth to 10 children.. think about the numerous times of pain they have to endure! thinking back, kalau dok igtkan sakit nak bersalin tuh, xnak aku bersalin lagi… dah rasa mcm nak tobat.. but de moment i hold my beautiful baby in my arms, all de pain vanished! zero pain! n rasa mcm nak baby lagi…

 

dr kang actually had induced me, hoping for normal delivery… but somehow i was only 8cm dilated, which makes it impossible for the baby to be born naturally so i had to undergo the c-section… although it took me only 3 hours in de labour room before the doc decide on the c-sec, but the pain was really really really unbearable… i remembered the nurse giving me pain killer (which i dont think work one bit), and after that i could hardly opened my eyes.. but still, i could feel the pain… n agaknya sbb tu la during the operation the doc decided to give me full anaesthetics instead of half body.. (which explains the amount of de hospital bills! hehehe..)

 

i was wheeled into the OT at 3pm, and my husband said this handsome boy who screamed at de top of his lung the moment he was born was safely delivered by 3.16 pm.. alhamdulillah!

 

    my baby...    

de day he was born..

de day he was born..

i was ordered to lie in bed for 24hours, which also meant that i was unable to breastfeed my baby who was put in the nursery… sian anak aku.. belum pape dah minum susu lombuuuu… but what to do… i was only awake at 8pm that night.. tu pun mamai lagi becoz ubat bius yg tersgtla strong… so keje aku tido jela smpai de next morning bertemankan husband aku yg tido atas sofa..

 

and de next day after 24 hours of lying in bed, i went to the nursery at 6pm to breastfeed my baby… and that was our first meeting… de first time i hold him n kissed him… the first moment… and my eyes were all watery… happy tears, i could tell :) i couldnt find the exact word to describe how i was feeling at that time.. all of a sudden i was in a rollercoaster of emotion… somehow, im thankful to GOD for the blessings that He gave me n my family….

   

 

and now, there r 3 of us: mama, papa and ahmad dzafran…